But in all Seriousness

Laying in my bed just thinking about things and playing with my phone.
What's going thru my head?
Well I'm glad you asked, person who isn't reading this bc nobody reads this:
-still shocked a tornado hit our town, we inspected the damage a little more today, granted it was small it was still a mere two blocks from my house. I could walk to where it is, easily. That's scary. What if it'd been worse? What if what if what if.
-I don't feel to great. My stomach is torn up, and I got that sick tickle in my throat like I'm coming down with something. I don't wanna get sick!
-I'm depressed I won't be home for thanksgiving. We're doing it the day before, which is fine, but I'm still upset. Ill be at work, being jealous of everyone spending the holiday with their families. I just like to have traditions, you know? Something to look forward to, and think back on later with fondness.
-Daniels playing Warcraft again. Uuugggghhhhh. At least it gets him outta my hair, but I have a vendetta against that damn game.
-I'm getting more and more worried about lily, shes getting old, her sight is getting really bad.


Damnit when she dies its gonna be rough. Oli loves that dog, we all dog. Hope it doesn't happen anytime soon. And I hope when it does me or Daniel find her. And figure out how to deal with it. Do we tell him she died? Do we lie to spare his feelings and tell him she went to live on a farm?
-parenting is hard. He's 5 now. I remember when I was five. He's gonna be able to remember everything now. Now it gets real. Things I teach him, the way I act, the way I raise him. I cant just, i dunno, its like when i realized he'll be remembering all this for the rest of his life, i wanna make sure im doing it right. Teaching the right lessons, instilling positive values, make sure he doesnt grow up to be an asshole. Like the whole lily thing. He'll remember her and her death. How do we handle it? Maybe I should start reading parenting books. No, I should just go with Instinct right? Argh. Dilemma after dilemma.


-im tired of blogging. This blog was deep, meaningful, thoughtful and thought provoking. It has exhausted me. Nighty.


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